The last few months have been challenging, but last week was especially tough. I felt like I ran out of ammo to fight the good fight, to stay strong and positive for myself and my family. I was spent, drained, DONE.
Through this whole ordeal I tell my husband all the time, "Stay Present" with the intention of keeping his mind from straying into scenarios that were stressful, scary, and not our reality. It's not worth spending energy on those scenarios that our anxiety creates. Following any of these scenarios into its depths is an energy and emotion draining endeavor. Those paths lead nowhere, and I wanted to reign his imagination back in.
Last week, it was his turn to say to me (many times), "Stay Present" I didn't like it, AT ALL.
Stay present?? More like sit-in-this-filth-that-is-your-life. It honestly hurt to stay present because my present sucked.
Then, this Sunday....BOOM.
I had an epiphany.
If I'm called to Stay Present, that means I'm also called to Stay Positive.
The only way being present works is if you say NO to anxiety and YES to gratitude. Otherwise, you feel like I did last week - like you're basically sitting in your own shiz. That's not good!
No wonder I was off last week - I wasn't balancing out the negative with positive. Yes, I must be aware of our stressful situation, but I'm also SO grateful for everything we have:
- a strong faith and faith community - I don't know where I'd be without these
- healthy, happy children who put a smile on our face at least once an hour
- a strong marriage <3
- generous, thoughtful, and awe-inspiring friends and family
- social services that alleviate some stresses while we focus on others
- a home with a history
- we always have coffee in our house. ALWAYS, so come on over! It's cheaper than Starbucks :)
When I look at my present, it's actually really beautiful. THAT is what I need to bask in : the gifts of the present.
This lesson doesn't just apply to life's curve balls, it works even when approaching our plates.
When my clients start their Whole30s, their brains always take them back to their former unhealthy (though comforting) habits, and anxiety takes them to the future where they can never, ever drink or have fun food so what's the point of this anyway?
I guide them to the present. We work on enjoying each bite of food, savoring every flavor as nature intended, and how good we feel after eating healthy foods. No guilt or anxiety. Just gratitude for the food you get to eat, the food your hands made. It's a great place to be!
How can you stay present and positive today? Praying for you!